This is my last post on BeesATC, at least for awhile.
As some of you already know, I relaunched my barnbees blog at http://barnbees.wordpress.com in January, 2013.
I needed a place to write without any self-imposed rules, where I would feel free to post anything and everything from rambles to poetry, cell phone snapped photos, art in any size, to just bee out loud,to think out loud on virtual paper.
The plan, initially, was to post on both blogs: “practice art” in ATC size here, everything else over there. Over time, the “barnbees” blog felt more like home.
Perhaps it was coming… I was screwing up here right and left in 2012, detouring from this blog’s purpose, rambling when I shouldn’t, skipping days of posting in a “daily” blog, failing to put together the monthly galleries, etc.
The need to just make art was also overpowering my commitment to making a thousand “practice” pieces. Someday, maybe, I will reach that magic number.
I still make practice pieces now and then, ATC size art, but found myself posting them on barnbees simply because it was easier to snap a cell phone photo, so what if it shows the table top or whatever background, than it was to scan and crop the image, jump through pc hoops and transfers to phone and email just to get it up here.
I was also dealing with some personal things that “don’t belong” on an art blog, may not belong on any blog, yet writing in such a public forum about a disorder shrouded in, and perpetuated by secrecy was, in fact, quite liberating. Yes, that is “airing your dirty laundry in public” so to say, but living with deep dark secrets was like wearing that same dirty laundry for 40+ years. Recovery requires taking it off.
Will I ever post again at BeesATC?
Honestly, I don’t know. I’m not ready to blow it off… won’t hurt for it to exist in the universe of cyberspace. Maybe someday, if I have a computer online again.
I’m a little off the grid right now, flying without the use of computers, internet providers, or even a wifi connection. Yes, no land lines or wireless, no cable or anything. I have basic utilities here, an antenna for the television. Every 30 days, I load a new $45 StraightTalk unlimited phone/data card on this LG Android cell phone.
I have adapted quite well. No plans to buy a new computer. My old one is fine to use as a glorified typewriter, sans humid days due to the bad fan.
Oh well. If you like my art, please wander over to barnbees now and then… click the “art notes” catagory if you want to avoid the rambles.
Thanks for reading. Thanks for following BeesATC. I hope you like barnbees… if not, then farewell, may your life journey be blessed with love, peace, art, and laughter.
Familiar shapes, simular forms, the curve that hand takes as it draws a line, a deja vu design. What was the name of it? The green one… it is here on this blog somewhere, do you recall? A white background and the swish of greens and browns. I have been here before in this imaginary place, drawn the scene in other seasons. This one is done in water colours, polychromos, and black ink.